Infant loss

14. Another year gone. Another year older. Another year our boy lives on in our hearts.

It’s hard to imagine that this part of our story started so many years ago. Impossible actually. It’s hard to imagine our life any different then what it currently is. The what if’s. The what could of been’s. They don’t seem to cross our minds much any more. Our life seems to be written just exactly how it was supposed to be. On my instagram feed the other day a quote popped up. “Don’t complicate life. We won’t be here forever. Once this day is over, it’s gone forever.” What a most perfect reminder. Live today. Don’t wait. Don’t wonder. Send out goodness into this world. Know everyone is always fighting a silent battle. Know that people are good and life is too short to do anything but love. k-

I feel so blessed that all these years later we have our family and friends who still allow us to remember. Who allow us to celebrate his birth and recognize that even though our Reid has been gone for almost 14 years that he will forever remain a piece of us. That his story, although short, was written with purpose. He may have only had 4 days earth side but he impacted this world more then some of us will in an entire lifetime. What a beautiful life that is…what a beautiful reminder to live well…with purpose….with hope and with love.

This past year has a been a beautiful one for our family. We prayed for this year to be a blessed one and we are grateful to say it was. We traveled, we laughed and we found so much joy. We put into perspective that there is nothing in this short life of ours that should ever be taken too seriously and that when you trust God life will always be ok. Funny side story….we went to a holiday party just a few days ago…it was a murder mystery….so fun! The entertaining part though was of all the people in the room and of all the characters… I was selected to be Dr. Sarah Bellum. This was for sure Reid saying hi for me…. for those that have followed along these last 14 years our very first high risk appointment that was the first thing he found….there was something wrong with Reid’s cerebellum. When I was handing this identity for the night I just smiled…what a perfect hello just a few days before his birthday.

We miss our baby. We miss our son. But there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about him and give thanks for the blessing that is our Reid. As much as I wouldn’t wish this heartache on anyone I also know that I am who I am because of Reid. Our family is exactly the way it is supposed to be and even though we aren’t all 5 together earthside….we are a family of 5. And we always will be.

We love you for always sweet boy! Happy 14th heavenly birthday!

As always we would love it in our son Reid’s honor that today you passed along one good deed. One smile. One anything to bring joy to another person.